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George Brink -- The Last American Cowboy -- Better Unknown

1/24/2014

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I knew a man named George Brink.  He drank at a local tavern called El Dorado.  A cheap watering hole, emphasis on the hole, El Dorado seemed more like the fantasy of a ten year old with a Western fetish than a bar -- life according to John Wayne movies.  Whenever I went there I expected at any minute to be assaulted by a little boy with a cap gun ordering me to reach for the sky.  I didn't go there often, but any time I did I could count on finding George Brink. 

He drank like a man trying to drain the ocean, aware of the futility yet too desperate for a glint of success to stop.  Between pints, George hammered down rye nails, great railroad spikes of booze shredding his throat to a gravelly degree that would frighten grim death.  That said, he had a habit of using soft words.  George knew how to calm people, make them feel at home with only a phrase or two.  I once saw a woman in El Dorado who looked like she'd been beaten half to death.  For an hour people tried to ask about her situation.  A tear or two might fall, but she only glared in response.  Whatever evil had befallen her she'd lost her taste for human contact.  George Brinks walked passed her on his way to the bathroom, muttered one line, and the armor cracked.  She started laughing.  The two didn't speak the rest of the evening.  However, even though it opened a cut in her lip, the woman smiled at George when she left.  No one ever saw her again, though it's safe to say we might not have recognized her without the wreckage.

George never told anyone what he said to her.  The closest he ever came was saying, "I said what she needed to hear."  There's no arguing with that. 

Over the years I've put together bits and pieces of George's past based on what he said when he felt comfortable enough to talk about himself.  Always scraps, he never offered the whole picture, but it was his life, so his to parcel out as he pleased.  Still, an active ear can collect quite a tapestry with the right amount of patience.  In fact, I confess it may have been a desire for collection that lead me back to the El Dorado.  Once the kitsch factor wore off there wasn't much about the place to keep a person around.   

As far as I could tell, George Brink started life somewhere in New York.  However, his father, a red blooded patriot of the old school, insisted the family would be safer in a less tactically significant city.  If the Commies ever started dropping nukes, hell, New York would be among the first to go.  So the whole Brink family took flight, settling with relatives in the middle of Ohio.  They spent ten years there before realizing the mistake they'd made.  That is to say, following a patriarch with a messiah complex.   

It seems George's father took to preaching the way a shark takes to water.  George never got into specifics, but from what I gathered (and I admit to a little curiosity leading me to research) Poppa Brink started his own church in Dayton, Ohio.  It didn't end well.  The only article I found alluded to an atomic cult of some kind.  They believed the end of days was at hand, monstrosities from the Book of Revelations the result of mutations after a nuclear war.  The police broke up Poppa Brink's church when the members started stockpiling weapons.  Since no one died, committed mass suicide, or molested anyone, the story didn't have enough sensational appeal for the news to follow; and George wasn't about to go into details other than his father was a preacher in Ohio:  "Worst time of my life." 

The day George felt old enough to make it on his own he left home.  He hopped from major city to major city for a few years, chasing odd jobs all the way to the coast.  There he got into the fishing business.  For six years he went out on those titanic ships, the ones that are basically floating canneries.  The boat hauls in fish by the ton then processes -- cleaning, cutting, and canning -- them onboard.  George had a tolerance for the cold, so he tended to work in the deep freeze storage, stacking boxes of fish.  A few months of back breaking work, and he was set for a year.  He's often advised me I should do a fish run like that:  "Good for the balls."   

Then he ended up in Alaska.  The only reason I've gleaned for this transition is a stray remark he made.  One night Mac Davis came on the jukebox singing Baby Don't Get Hooked on Me, and George said, "Damn right.  Don't get hooked.  I fucking hated Alaska.  Nothing to do except realize how unimportant you are." 

By calling up the same song, I've been able to get a few other choice quotes concerning a woman he calls Lulu.  George refers to her as the chocolate north star, and the tooth filled Cunt, sometimes in the same sentence.  Young as I am I know well enough to tell when a broken heart is in play.  George once muttered something indecipherable about a baby then paid his tab and left.  No one saw him for a week, and he when he came back he asked the El Dorado's owner for a favor.  That same day Baby Don't Get Hooked on Me got removed from the jukebox.   

George looks like someone who belongs in a place like El Dorado.  He's a cowboy caricature, skin tanned nut brown, features chiseled by wind and rain, and a swagger that says I DON'T GIVE A FUCK  more than any words could.  He spent time in San Bernadino running with the Gypsy Jesters, a crew of motorcycle outlaws too crazy for the Hell's Angels.  He grew marijuana in the Canadian wilderness, and claims Sasquatch is not only real but has a penchant for munching on weed.  George did repo work in Detroit for two years, however, he quit after shooting a man:  "Didn't want me taking his car.  Can't say as I blame him.  Sweet ride.  Judge said self defense, but his relatives... they had a right to feel otherwise."  Then he drifted along Lake Michigan before settling in the suburbs outside Chicago. 

"Good a place as any," George told me, "And I was feeling too old for drifting."   

In his early forties, George got a job at an appliance store.  He settled into doing repairs, and has been draining the taps at El Dorado for almost seven years now.  I've only known him two, but in that time I've seen him get a smile out of a wrecked woman, talk a knife wielding speed freak calm, punch out a stony giant, dance someone's broken heart back together, turn a birthday into a legend, and buy a drink with a smile.   

A few weeks ago I ran into him and asked how he was doing.  

George said, "I feel my blood jangling."   

He's warned all of us who know him what that means.  He's sat in one place as long as he can.  Soon enough the call of the wild will summon him out to the road.  Lassoing the first tornado that happens past, George Brinks will ride off into the sunset.  I feel lucky having met him, but I wish there was some way to know what adventures he's off to next.  Or maybe it's better not knowing.

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Cinnamon's Bottled Babies

1/17/2014

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When I heard men are not capable of getting pregnant my first thought was the fuck you say.  I scoffed at the naysayers with their mouths full of nay.  There used to be a time I believed in limitations, but that was before a blind illiterate made a million dollars as a painter of poetry.  You know who I’m talking about.  So I devised a plan… then crafted a better one and went with that.

I paid a young prostitute named Maria to take my seed.  Several days of passionate screwing passed before I managed to sperm-punch her egg, but by god we got the job done.  Let it never be said hotels for transients aren’t fertility temples; and that bellows probably helped a bit.  (…dare I confess to the love between Maria and I that caused her to kill herself later when she realized she could never love me as much as she wanted, in addition to discovering her father was her brother, her mother her aunt, all descended from British royalty.)

After allowing Maria to carry the child for three months, I had the fetus removed then inserted into an artificial womb designed by a man claiming to be Japanese and a scientist.  This pseudo-womb was then implanted in my abdomen.  The surgical procedures went smoothly, although the fetus amputation did cause Maria to cry for several weeks.  An unexpected consequence I tried to remedy with heroin, but even after I nodded out I could still hear her sobbing down the hall, ruining my high. 

I carried the child for two weeks before becoming bored with the whole endeavor.  Granted, there were three or seven men in the world anxious to see me successful.  However, these individuals, with their constant letters of encouragement, disgusted me.  They desired to experience the miracle of carrying life and birthing it into the world rather than winning a bar bet as I intended.  Still, the idea of contributing to the creation of a whole new type of freak, as well as winning two bucks, motivated me to overcome being bored and strive for victory.

There are many things one learns while pregnant.  Mainly it’s an education in how much it sucks to be with child.  But there are other things like how spiteful bartenders can get upon realizing they’ve been serving tequila to a pregnant person for five hours, or the way casinos will make the ridiculous assumption you’ve surgically implanted some kind of cheating machine… the astonishing amount of cash porn makers will offer… how quickly your own mother will call you vile for getting pregnant.  And Christ Almighty, the mad cravings as if the fetus is in a position to make demands.  Don’t be getting uppity little one, we’re at the top of a flight of stairs… though that goat cheese pizza did kick ass. 

In any event, another three months passed.  For two days I’d been convinced my abdominal discomfort stemmed from constipation brought on by opiates.  Following a quick examination by Dr. Winston “Cinnamon” Wallace, the self proclaimed Japanese scientist, it was discovered the artificial womb had malfunctioned.  It’d been designed to swell in order to accommodate the growing fetus.  For reasons not yet understood at the time, the swelling control mechanism had failed, and the faux womb was growing unchecked.  Cinnamon gave me two options:  end the experiment immediately, or risk having my abdomen distended till it ruptured in a flood of all around unpleasantness. 

Before deciding, I called my friend with whom I’d made the bet.  He confessed there was some temptation to insist I carry the child to a full term.  However, he admitted such thoughts were more the result of disliking defeat than a wish to see me dead.  He paid the two dollars in pennies, and I instructed Doc Cinnamon to quote Get this thing the fuck out of me before I die end quote. 

The surgery saved my life, and initially fucked me over in the process.  We discovered the baby had been dead for some time.  Some time being since we’d removed it from Maria.  For the last several months I’d been carrying a dead baby in my belly.  I’ve experienced worse revelations, but not many.  When my buddy heard of this he declared himself the victor since he defined pregnant as a state in which one contains a developing embryo.  Because the fetus hadn’t grown inside me he considered my effort a failure.  The dictionary had the gall to agree with his assessment of pregnancy, so I conceded defeat, and returned his two dollars.  Maria killed herself not soon after.  I recall standing by her coffin, which on reflection shouldn’t have been open since she set herself on fire, and being haunted by my defeat.  But it’s been said… fortune… bold… something lemonade windows. 

The artificial womb acted as a hermetically sealed mausoleum.  The baby never decayed which was probably good for me what with the corpse being inside me; and there are a surprising amount of people who don’t want to give up their dead children.  Just ask Rick Santorum.  So I began Cinnamon’s Bottled Babies.  It seemed better than Womb Tombs.  We provide people with the means to live in the fantasy that all is well.  The grim day of the stillbirth never arrived.  And I think that’s worth two dollars.

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BOOKS AND SHIT! ep. 2: A Clockwork Catcher in the Rye

1/10/2014

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This time around we explore reasons why the graphic horrors in A Clockwork Orange should be shown to teenagers to make them better people as well as why A Catcher in the Rye isn't for everyone.
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Why I Quit:  Cleaning up after the Dead

1/8/2014

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This is just a job.  Don’t think of it as anything special, nor get to notions it means anything.  This is nothing more fantastic than soap and water.  At the end of the day, at best, this is a paycheck and nothing more.  

The police have already been through the place.  The job is nothing more than clean up after the fact.  Photos have already been taken so never mind what might’ve been missed.  There’s still a chance to see the scene a second time, even after the room doesn’t look like a slaughter house.  The job is erasure not preservation.  If anyone wanted the place to remain a testament then that would be the job.  As the matter stands, slop the mop across the floor, and get the sponge on the walls. 

Yes, it’s a mess.  No need to comment.  All the words that could describe the horror have already been spoken; and the rookie puke is a sure sign this is one of a kind.  No need to say this is gruesome.  The cops were here for hours.  They got their fill.  So take the graffiti off the walls.  Bloody runes, it doesn’t matter how quick they disappear.  Cops must’ve taken note, and the gist of the runes is obvious -- occult overtones. 


Scrub away the chalk outline then pick the brains off the wall.  Take a sponge to the ceiling to get rid of the Latin.  Gibberish as far as anyone is concerned, though a few years as an altar server made the phrase clear.  Deus vult means God wills it.  But don’t stick in two cents.  Surely the FBI can make sense of a little used language.  Get to the business of collecting skull fragments before the sun sets.  Don’t want to be here when it gets dark. 


One routine evolves another.  This isn’t the first time such a scene needed scrubbing.  With any luck this’ll be the last, though there’s no reason to think as such.  The cops keep saying any day now they’ll be closing in on the fiend, but all they ever say is vague.  The killer is a white man between the ages of 18 to 42 who might be fit or not with extensive tattooing or not, and he comes from a broken home unless he doesn’t.  The profilers are experts at covering their bases without committing to a single possibility.  If anyone ever gets caught it’ll seem like the cops were always within a hair of grasping the right killer.  That said, the clean up catches little bits no one seems to have noticed.  Fragments of lipstick on the rug suggesting an uncommon maroon, the empty slots on book shelves implying missing novels, and the plants clipped of blooms – push the rag Sherlock don’t think too much. 

Days turn to weeks, turn to months.  The pay is great.  A flat rate for coming out followed by an hourly charge after the first two, and it always takes at least four to clean the mess the Reaper leaves behind.  He’s walking artillery, a mortar shell that hunts for targets.  The mess is often profound, and something no one wants to linger.  It’s bad enough seeing the aftermath once, let alone having any hint of a reminder.  Some horrors are best left behind. 

Remember the days erasing the traces of suicides, murders, deathly accidents, and the general carnage which makes ordinary life more melodramatic than it ever intends to be.  Then this whole nightmare started, and the other cleaners wanted nothing to do with it.  Seemed like a chance to make some extra cash, but it soon became clear why no one else wanted to clean up after the Reaper.  It always feels like the killer is watching, getting more and more pissed at the erasure of his art work.  Hell, sometimes at the end of a session there are silent messages on the voicemail like someone called to leave a glare. 

Every cleaning session involves stains overflowing with implication.  The skull bits on the ceiling despite the fact the only weapon seems to be a corkscrew.  82 paper clips twisted into a kind of spike explain the arterial arc painted across the far wall.  Another couch darkened by human grease leaving a silhouette implying a morbidly obese person.  Shot gun speckles in the wall over a blood soaked teddy bear.  Fragments give glimpses into backgrounds.  Myriad CDs, a fridge full of homemade preserves, an inch of dust on the ceiling fan blades, glasses on the nightstand scratched to seemingly useless, entire bookshelves full of classics half finished, bookmarks noting where the reading stopped, cobwebs holding starved spiders, clothes in various states, pristine dishes set next to dirty cups – the suggestive elements of everyday lives.  Never mind the little details, there’s a stain in the carpet that needs to be removed otherwise this house won’t sell.  Buyers can get past the idea the previous owner killed his wife so long as there’s no sign it ever happened.  But these Reaper jobs say so much without words; the pool of blood on the bathroom floor that turned into a trail, a slick running up the ceiling into one corner as if the body got dragged up the wall.  Either the Reaper painted a swash with the body or else… don’t think about it.  There are already too many rumors about the guy being a ghost. 

And last night, half awake on the way to take a piss, it seemed for a second, a brief moment before eyes adjusted to the light, there was someone else in the apartment, a shade that vanished in the blink of an eye.  Cleaning up after the dead, it’s a living.  It’s just a paycheck, but considering how far it’s getting under the skin seems time to say, “I quit.”



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New Year's Resolutions 2014

1/1/2014

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I learned something last night.  Despite my best efforts I'm getting older.  I walked 1.5 miles, and couldn't smoke a cigarette at the end without coughing.  My body just couldn't handle that kind of awesome anymore.  When people get into bar fights I no longer think I should get in the middle of that because I've never been stabbed.  Now I just want the fighters to shut the fuck up; go somewhere else to prove who's the bigger asshole.  Sigh, I've been turning my stereo down because it feels too loud.  Maybe someday when my first born has grown up to its full potential I can eat its heart to steal its youth, but for now I have to accept the fact that aging means, perhaps, the time has come to make some New Year's resolutions. 

I've never been a fan of this process.  Most people tend to make them either sarcastically or unrealistically.  Plus, the whole concept is an admission of one's flaws.  I'm not saying I have none, however, that's like having a -- I dunno -- giant space station with one obvious weak spot then crafting a map leading direct to said vulnerability.  It's the little details which prevent galactic domination.  Yet, I've come to realize this chink in the armor outlook is the wrong perspective.  People make their resolutions public in order to increase the likelihood of their success.  For instance, if one pledges to quit smoking, letting friends know about the resolution means certain support factors kick in when one is caught smoking again (i.e. shame).   

The act of making resolutions has many origins.  Ancient Babylonians promised their gods at the start of each new year to repay their debts and return borrowed objects.  Medieval knights would take the peacock-vow at the end of Christmas to reaffirm their commitment to chivalry.  And of course, Christians and Jews have their own holiday periods during which individuals are supposed to reflect on their shortcomings then make sacrifices and avow to be a better Jew or Christian in the days ahead.  The point being it doesn't matter where the practice comes from since, according to a 2007 study conducted by Richard Wiseman at the University of Bristol, when it comes to New Year's resolutions 88% of people (in a sample of ground of 3,000) will fail.   

So it would seem that there is a second benefit to making resolutions this year:  the opportunity to be better than 2,640 people.  Never mind the chance to say fuck you to my body for betraying me via the natural aging process, I've got odds to beat.  BANZAI!

 

1.  Health the Bacon Way

Shedding lard and eating right are the most common resolutions.  I can't say I exactly have the healthiest diet in the world.  In fact, what I tend to eat might be considered a subtle form of suicide.  Yet, I try to keep in mind there worse ways to die.  Murdering my liver with fast food, booze, and colas is better than, say, dying in fire.  I don't suspect fire tastes very good.  Still, the time has come to, at the very least, scale things back.   

So this year I resolve to call a suicide hotline before indulging in any fast food; and to start running from my demons which compel me to delicious acts of self destruction.  No more manhattans and bacon cheeseburgers with a side of Marlboros.  Instead, it's jogging in a state of mild depression followed by big salads. 

 

2.  Explore Canada by fucking hookers

You heard me.  Unlike most Americans, I don't have a problem with Canadia.  I know they're just as fucked up as anyone else.  The violent crime rate in Vancouver has been on a steady rise the past decade, and I can't be the only person who remembers when Vince Weiguang Li decapitated people on a Montreal Greyhound bus.  Mayor Ford ring any bells?  Canada is just as deranged as anywhere else, but like a small town, the country has a good habit of keeping the weird under wraps.  I intend to explore the seamy underbelly of the Great White North, and bring back even more definite proof that Canada is wearing a veil to hide its twisted dark side.  And if that means hop scotching from pay-snatch to pay-snatch, so be it because in Canada prostitution is very legal. 

What I'm getting at is I don't travel enough. 

And that should do it.  No sense in going overboard the first time around.  I've never really made, much less tried keeping New Year's resolutions, so it seems best to start with a small amount.  Health, sex, and weirdness.  What more does a person need to aspire towards?   

Next year I can always go bigger.  I'll resolve the usual simple stuff:  feed the hungry, defeat evil, kill a celebrity, be more politically involved, save a baby from a baby with a knife (or perhaps a start a league of knife fighting babies), domesticate pine martens, and prove the existence of god... then kill god for all the dumb shit its pulled.  But such demonstrations of my own epic stature will have to wait till 2015.  This year is all about admitting there's a little room for improvement.

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